Phase terakhir 2012

Salam jumaat, Jumaat yang di hujung-hujung tahun memang sejuk dan nyaman sampaikan nak tidur lepas subuh pun rasa menyesal baik buat milo pastu buka tingkap luas-luas pastu blogging  walaupun isnin ni ada 3 quizzes dan 2 assignments kena hantar ahaha.

But today as this is the 3rd phase of 2012, September, October, blabla..onwards, that feeling come again. I fear that that thing will come again. okay sebenarnya bukan will come again tapi maybe waktu,cuaca,latar masyarakat,latar tempat obviously sama macam tahun lepas punya so I feel like..something like that (which the most hurt thing of my 21 years)will happen.again. even I know that would be impossible..*sebak*


And the jogging thing. Likely not relevant to do for this entire semester, because, it will remind me of that thing, and I know..I am not strong like I always imagine. I think I can bear, but at last tears will come down haha silly me ;'(


The thing is, once you be the victim of feeling, nobody can help even yourself. Kenapa hati berubah? Walaupun dalam otak berkobar-kobar untuk yang terbaik. Yang terbaik tak selalunya dengan kebaikan.

Tapi someone has said; keterpaksaan kalau dilakukan dengan ikhlas, Allah akan redho. Tapi ni bukan keterpaksaan. Ni just emmm takut pisang berubah dua kali pastu dihantui bayangan silam hushhhhh loser laaa.


I'm sorry if my words hurt you.Assalamualaikum.